For the first time, I reveal the horrendous events that began on October 21, 2001 when my husband, Dan Pelosi, became the primary suspect in the murder of Theodore Ammon. Three years later he was found guilty and sentenced to twenty-five years to live. When the bludgeoned naked body of the wealthy financier was found in his East Hampton country estate, my life and the lives of my children were never the same again. The death of the New York millionaire instantly became a sensational news item that led to hundreds of stories printed in every Long Island newspaper as well as lengthy articles in "Time Magazine," "The Star" and other tabloids. The East Hampton murder didn't stop the printed word, national television jumped in with specials on "Paula Zahn Live," "Primetime," "Dateline," "48 Hours," "Court TV" and a Lifetime TV movie called "Murder in the Hamptons." Depressed, humiliated and filled with shame, I prayed to God for help. He sent me an Angel. When I felt confused and alone, pennies miraculously appeared that gave me the faith to forge ahead. Surprisingly, from a place of disgrace and shame, and the help of an Angel, I found the strength to hold my head up high. It has taken me over five years to find the courage to tell what it was like living on the sideline of a sensational murder, and more importantly, to expose the insanity of a twenty-year dysfunctional marriage.